In Queer in Utrecht we share portraits of queer people in and around the city of Utrecht. Through these short profile sketches we aim to represent and celebrate the local queer community in its diverse ways. Today we represent Nikki.
“I already knew Utrecht, but I don’t know yet what it’s like to live here when the city is buzzing.”
Identifies as bi/queer.
Vocation: film student
Interests: film, art, society
Current location: Utrecht
Nikki was born and raised in Amsterdam but recently made the move to Utrecht, where they now live with their boyfriend. In this second part of Queer in Utrecht, we welcome her to the city.
How would you describe Utrecht?
The first thing that comes to mind is “Amsterdam’s little sister”. Utrecht feels a lot like Amsterdam, except smaller. The canals, of course, that’s the same, and it’s also close to Amsterdam. I find the atmosphere here cozier.
I wasn’t expecting to find this such a beautiful place to live. I used to visit every now and then with friends, and my boyfriend is from around here, so we’d go out to dinner with his parents sometimes. I used to go to concerts a lot, so now I’m really looking forward to going to Tivoli and coming back home within ten minutes.
“If you identify as queer, it is also part of your personality, and it connects you with a certain history.”
What does being queer mean to you?
I do feel like it brings along a deeper layer of identity and history. If you identify this way, it is also part of your personality, and it connects you with a certain history.
I don’t see it as a huge part of my romantic life, but I do still feel that connection in terms of identity, for example when it’s Pride. It will remain part of my story and struggles. Those are still present, too, although not as much as they used to be. It’s something I still think about a lot.
What would you like to say to queer people who are also in a “straight” relationship?
What I tell myself as well; rationally, I know that I am as “bi” or “queer” as people in same-sex relationships, and I don’t think being queer is only about my romantic or sexual experiences. It is part of my being, which is expressed in many ways other than my relationships. So I still feel that connection.
I think I am still trying to find myself in this, but I no longer struggle with questions like “am I queer enough?”. I don’t feel like I have to prove myself anymore.