For the past few weeks I have been struggling massively to find time and peace to write, so I decided to make things easier for myself. Instead of planning posts that need a lot of research and attention, I want to just write what has been going on in my life lately. Here’s the first post from a week in my life.
Back to work
At first I felt very excited to go back to work, especially after sitting at home so much the entire summer. Unfortunately I quickly became overwhelmed with how much there was to do, and how little time we were given to do it. I have been working overtime continuously for the past week, which is definitely not good for my health.
However, I am very glad to be back in the classroom teaching students face-to-face. I have decided to work from home whenever I am not teaching, because I feel safe there. During the lockdown I found such a good and productive rhythm for myself that I never managed to implement on location, so I felt this was the best option for now.
Ever since I got back to work, I have felt a little more dysfunctional than usual. I can manage most of my work tasks, but outside of that, I am unable to get anything done. It feels like I am losing a specific function every day (read up on executive functions here, it explains a lot). I cannot bring myself to cook, clean, do laundry, clear out the dishwasher, etc. It’s extremely frustrating.
I have also been having issues with my physical health (here’s a list of symptoms I’ve been having), which in turn have an effect on my mental wellbeing, of course. It looks like I will be making lots of trips to the doctor. Truthfully, I hope they find something, because I am finding the task of maintaining my physical health more and more unmanageable. A proper diagnosis would mean I could probably get treatment as well.